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In a busy maths class filled with the usual chatter of students, there existed a group—about six students—who thrived on banter, often at the expense of others. These weren’t just your run-of-the-mill jokesters; they were the kind of classmates who bore a special talent for being obnoxious, seemingly enchanted by the chaos they created. For the autistic student, the narrator of this story, their constant interruptions were particularly grating.

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Our protagonist had always found solace in maths, his favorite subject, perhaps because it was one area where logic triumphed over the unpredictable chaos of social interaction. However, this was not enough to shield him from the incessant questions and comments that came from the two classmates stationed nearest to him, who were part of that annoying group: let’s call one of them Orange Juice. The name suited him, as it was like a joke nobody else really got; a playful jab meant to deflect the sting of his incessant harassment.

The trouble began when Orange Juice, who had never seemed to care about anyone’s feelings, decided it was a good day to inquire, once again, “Why are you out of class more?” This was a question the narrator had grown incredibly tired of answering. It was one of those probing questions that carried a weight far deeper than the casual tone in which it was delivered. To those around, it might seem innocuous, but for our protagonist, it opened a floodgate of painful memories and ongoing struggles.

In truth, the narrator had spent a significant amount of time in the Special Education area—not because he wasn’t capable but because he faced classes that felt like a mental minefield. Subjects like French and Religious Education were filled with triggers for anxiety and self-doubt, each lesson a reminder of past traumas that had nearly driven him away from school altogether. One particularly dreadful episode involving an infuriating cover teacher—let’s call him Mr. X—had left a lasting scar. It was a day he simply wanted to excuse himself to the bathroom, but instead was met with ridicule when he couldn’t immediately respond in French, a language he hadn’t even begun to master.

Adding fuel to the fire were those traumatic moments in class with a teacher who seemed to revel in punishing students, which had slowly chipped away at his self-esteem and caused his mental health to spiral. It was Ms. Y, a teacher whose methods could only be described as tyrannical. She had a knack for making school feel like a prison, leading to a year of therapy for the narrator—one year that consisted of confronting all of that accumulated trauma and learning how to manage it.

As Orange Juice’s words hung in the air of that maths class, something shifted within the narrator. Instead of brushing it off like he usually did, he decided it was time to drop the facade. “Oh yeah, I only ever contemplated bad stuff to myself, contemplated existence several times, and had to go through therapy for a year to get me to come back to this school regularly,” he shot back, the words flowing out like a dam breaking. There was a moment of stunned silence, the air thick with disbelief.

For a heartbeat, the class felt different. The usual snickers and eye-rolls died down as the weight of his revelation sank in. Orange Juice’s expression morphed from smug curiosity to one of genuine shock. Rather than the comeback he might have expected, he was left speechless, a rare victory for anyone who had endured his brand of harassment.

But the moment was fleeting. Before any further comments could be exchanged, the teacher moved on to the next subject, inadvertently saving the day for Orange Juice. Perhaps it was for the best; the moment had stripped away the veneer of ignorance and forced those around to reckon with the realities of mental health, even if only for a brief second. Yet, the narrator felt a small rush of empowerment. He had said what he needed to say, and it felt liberating.

This interaction may have seemed mundane to an outsider, but for the narrator, it was a turning point—a silent assertion of his right to exist in the classroom without constant scrutiny. He understood that not everyone would grasp the complexities of mental health, but for every time he had been belittled, he had now delivered a powerful reminder that everyone carried their battles.

 

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